Random Excuses..

SOmedays it's so hard being me for you see I'm one of those people born without a filter ! Which means what ever I'm thinking usually comes directly out of my mouth without consequence ! I'm not a mean person, I don't like hurting peoples feelings but it but don't ask me questions unless you truly want the answer! Its hard with the kids because they are just as much as a smart ass as I am! Do remember that if you want to he truth you will always get it here but it may shirt your feelings..

Awesome Connections

I have an awesome connection with my loves.. More so with Mrs. Grey.. but damn that sexy woman drives all of us insane.. I love the smirk that stays on her sexy mouth like 90 percent of the time.. You never know what she's going to come up with.. Like a tickling match between her and Gamer turned into a blood sport.. Lets just say she came out victorious.. 

Marriage just a piece of paper or a reality of Commitment

In the ever changing world of todays reality there are many forms of commitment.. What is right for me may not be right for you.. In the 20+ years Ive been with my Gamer there has been many ups and downs.. Did that piece of paper given to us by some government official make me want to stay with him? Honestly no, it was the commitment I made to him in my heart.. Just like with Ms Christian Grey there is no legal document saying that she is mine forever and yet there is a commitment deep with in my soul... And that is the place that matters the most.. These are the loves of my life , the air I breathe an this is where I want to be until I take my last breathe and even beyound..

Touches

       Once upon a time your touches were sexy, seceductive an ohh so tempting .. It was as if the Gods blessed you with a gift of passion an skill.. You were always locked into passion , there was a way you had with words ..  

      When your skin touched mine you lit my soul a fire , making me feel as If I was the only girl for you.. Now we all know that was just a fantastic fairy tale and like all fairy tales there is a ending!  With each ending there is suppose to be a beginning but I'm at loss.. I'm the same woman who liked it rough , who gave as good as she got!! Yet the kid gloves has came on an now I'm treated as something breakable .. Something that can be removed from its shelve to be looked at , yet only touched with the softess of touches. 

      I'm tired of being the mother of your children , the safe one, I'd rather be the one you share your desires with .. 

The one to feel your passion hear your moans as your grasp my hair .. 

So instead of asking for more i stay in the role I know so well, safely hidden from expections an failures 

Schedules an Insecurities ...

Without one you have the other .In a household this size every minute your day has to be scheduled... From the littlest  task of breakfast is at such an such time to kinky play on this day..

Because most people believe that jealousy is a constant companion in this type of relationship . I can honestly tell you after 2 yrs the green monster rarely rears its ugly head.. An normally when it does , at least in me, I can recognize that I do not normally feel this way an internally work on a solution to fix it.. 

    Our household runs like most of Modern Day America.. I get up when the kids do , spending my days taking care of my family an running to an fro.. My lovely Gamer goes to work each morning an comes in late at night . Currently Ms Christian Grey herself is a full time student , taking opportunities that She's never had before an working on her college education.. But unlike most of America this Mommy has backup.. I have the most amazing bunch of older kids that don't min helping with the younger ones (of course they do get a little cash for their troubles when we have it) and each of our children have two Mommies , two confidants, two best friends .. 

     When I saw I share everything with MsGrey I mean it all every insecurity I have , every worry, diaper changes, school work an even teenage crushes!! The fun stuff too, the gratification of a job well done, the quiet time of just being held an the kinky fun of the playroom .. Nothing is off limits , no secrets are kept but most of all trust is always there !! I know she has my back more than any other person in this world!! We divide an conquer most all tasks in running a household this size .. One of the things I love the most is having my best friends as lovers.. When one of us are cooking dinner the other (one or two) is usually near by being the sous chef.. Music is always blaring  in our house.. Something is always going on but at the end of each day I'm thrilled to be able to go to bed an just lay in the quiet of the night an just be, no words really have to be spoken because we all know that LOVE is the most prevalent thing on our lives and it makes the world a much better place..  

Current Song~ Missing You Fall Out Boy 

 

Holidays

Holidays are time for lots of food&great company.. A time just to enjoy each other.. Today we spent all day with just each other an lots of good food!! Had an movie Marathon.. I love days like this , where we bar the door an let no one breach the comfy confines of our sanity..

Crazy Days an even Crazier Nights...

Lately our nights have been filled with screaming toddlers an a teething infant (fun fun joy joy) .. But there is nothing better than to crawl into that King size bed with the ones I love.. 

As you can imagine with a household this size it takes a lot of juggling to mange it but we do it.. When Chaos turned 4 this year we bought a pool for his birthday but in reality it's a present for all of us..

I love when the days wind down ,my loves an I can just go , sit together under the starlight an talk .. It's where the Sexy Dom an I ground an recharge our batteries .. The Gamer enjoys being our "protector" from all the bugs .. He pretends to hate the coolness of the water but he's the last to leave... These nights make me so  thankful for the two loves I share my life with, the joys an struggles of parenting ..

Sometime I get the question of why I have to live my life this way.. The answer is a simple one.. Love choose you , you don't choose it!! When I met my Sexy MsGrey I immediately feel head over heels with her.. It was a connection deeper than I have ever felt with anyone on this planet , not even MrGamer himself and we've shared 20+years together..I can remember the sexy look on her face when I invited her into our playroom ..  Sex is always grand an pleasing but with her energy it became magical.. The three of us ,together, my dear readers is exactly what everyone dreams of pure passion an love!!! It's never been boring in the almost 3 years we've been together.. An learning new tricks every day, your never more exposed to a person then while making love, an let me tell you something I love the person I am when I'm with them .. My  insecurities are gone.. I feel whole, safe an sexy!! I have learned so much about my self from MsGrey and I can only hope I've enriched her life as much as she has mine!!🌈💖

Current Song ~ Calling You by Blue            October