A Little Kink in your day...

Sometimes no matter how long you have been with your partner or partners sometimes you need to add a spark or too.. But in my case Ms Grey sends up a whole artillery instead of a small spark.. That Dom never does anything on a small scale..
Ms.Grey let go of the control she holds so dear an allowed me to u leash the inner Goddess an let me tell you it was an experience I will always cherish..
An no you bunch of perves I'm not sharing.. Just imagine the inner Goddess unleashed whips an all..

I am truly the happiest I have ever been in my life.. Yes my life is hectic, full of chaos but most of all full of love an support.. I love the nights where my Inner Goddess can be unleashed,dragons can fly an no holds barred.. But ones of the things I truly love is just crawling into that giant California King an snuggling.. Being held ,listening to the sound of their heart beating as the hush of the night floods around us as we follow the rest of the house into Dream Land .. It doesn't happen every night because of our crazy lives but when it does its more precious than  silver an gold..

Random Excuses..

SOmedays it's so hard being me for you see I'm one of those people born without a filter ! Which means what ever I'm thinking usually comes directly out of my mouth without consequence ! I'm not a mean person, I don't like hurting peoples feelings but it but don't ask me questions unless you truly want the answer! Its hard with the kids because they are just as much as a smart ass as I am! Do remember that if you want to he truth you will always get it here but it may shirt your feelings..

Awesome Connections

I have an awesome connection with my loves.. More so with Mrs. Grey.. but damn that sexy woman drives all of us insane.. I love the smirk that stays on her sexy mouth like 90 percent of the time.. You never know what she's going to come up with.. Like a tickling match between her and Gamer turned into a blood sport.. Lets just say she came out victorious.. 

Marriage just a piece of paper or a reality of Commitment

In the ever changing world of todays reality there are many forms of commitment.. What is right for me may not be right for you.. In the 20+ years Ive been with my Gamer there has been many ups and downs.. Did that piece of paper given to us by some government official make me want to stay with him? Honestly no, it was the commitment I made to him in my heart.. Just like with Ms Christian Grey there is no legal document saying that she is mine forever and yet there is a commitment deep with in my soul... And that is the place that matters the most.. These are the loves of my life , the air I breathe an this is where I want to be until I take my last breathe and even beyound..

Touches

       Once upon a time your touches were sexy, seceductive an ohh so tempting .. It was as if the Gods blessed you with a gift of passion an skill.. You were always locked into passion , there was a way you had with words ..  

      When your skin touched mine you lit my soul a fire , making me feel as If I was the only girl for you.. Now we all know that was just a fantastic fairy tale and like all fairy tales there is a ending!  With each ending there is suppose to be a beginning but I'm at loss.. I'm the same woman who liked it rough , who gave as good as she got!! Yet the kid gloves has came on an now I'm treated as something breakable .. Something that can be removed from its shelve to be looked at , yet only touched with the softess of touches. 

      I'm tired of being the mother of your children , the safe one, I'd rather be the one you share your desires with .. 

The one to feel your passion hear your moans as your grasp my hair .. 

So instead of asking for more i stay in the role I know so well, safely hidden from expections an failures 

Schedules an Insecurities ...

Without one you have the other .In a household this size every minute your day has to be scheduled... From the littlest  task of breakfast is at such an such time to kinky play on this day..

Because most people believe that jealousy is a constant companion in this type of relationship . I can honestly tell you after 2 yrs the green monster rarely rears its ugly head.. An normally when it does , at least in me, I can recognize that I do not normally feel this way an internally work on a solution to fix it.. 

    Our household runs like most of Modern Day America.. I get up when the kids do , spending my days taking care of my family an running to an fro.. My lovely Gamer goes to work each morning an comes in late at night . Currently Ms Christian Grey herself is a full time student , taking opportunities that She's never had before an working on her college education.. But unlike most of America this Mommy has backup.. I have the most amazing bunch of older kids that don't min helping with the younger ones (of course they do get a little cash for their troubles when we have it) and each of our children have two Mommies , two confidants, two best friends .. 

     When I saw I share everything with MsGrey I mean it all every insecurity I have , every worry, diaper changes, school work an even teenage crushes!! The fun stuff too, the gratification of a job well done, the quiet time of just being held an the kinky fun of the playroom .. Nothing is off limits , no secrets are kept but most of all trust is always there !! I know she has my back more than any other person in this world!! We divide an conquer most all tasks in running a household this size .. One of the things I love the most is having my best friends as lovers.. When one of us are cooking dinner the other (one or two) is usually near by being the sous chef.. Music is always blaring  in our house.. Something is always going on but at the end of each day I'm thrilled to be able to go to bed an just lay in the quiet of the night an just be, no words really have to be spoken because we all know that LOVE is the most prevalent thing on our lives and it makes the world a much better place..  

Current Song~ Missing You Fall Out Boy 

 

Holidays

Holidays are time for lots of food&great company.. A time just to enjoy each other.. Today we spent all day with just each other an lots of good food!! Had an movie Marathon.. I love days like this , where we bar the door an let no one breach the comfy confines of our sanity..

Crazy Days an even Crazier Nights...

Lately our nights have been filled with screaming toddlers an a teething infant (fun fun joy joy) .. But there is nothing better than to crawl into that King size bed with the ones I love.. 

As you can imagine with a household this size it takes a lot of juggling to mange it but we do it.. When Chaos turned 4 this year we bought a pool for his birthday but in reality it's a present for all of us..

I love when the days wind down ,my loves an I can just go , sit together under the starlight an talk .. It's where the Sexy Dom an I ground an recharge our batteries .. The Gamer enjoys being our "protector" from all the bugs .. He pretends to hate the coolness of the water but he's the last to leave... These nights make me so  thankful for the two loves I share my life with, the joys an struggles of parenting ..

Sometime I get the question of why I have to live my life this way.. The answer is a simple one.. Love choose you , you don't choose it!! When I met my Sexy MsGrey I immediately feel head over heels with her.. It was a connection deeper than I have ever felt with anyone on this planet , not even MrGamer himself and we've shared 20+years together..I can remember the sexy look on her face when I invited her into our playroom ..  Sex is always grand an pleasing but with her energy it became magical.. The three of us ,together, my dear readers is exactly what everyone dreams of pure passion an love!!! It's never been boring in the almost 3 years we've been together.. An learning new tricks every day, your never more exposed to a person then while making love, an let me tell you something I love the person I am when I'm with them .. My  insecurities are gone.. I feel whole, safe an sexy!! I have learned so much about my self from MsGrey and I can only hope I've enriched her life as much as she has mine!!🌈💖

Current Song ~ Calling You by Blue            October 

In the Stillness Comes a Moment of Clarity

In a household of this size you can imagine quiet times are hard to find.. Children all seem to be on different sleeping schedules.. Since school has been out for the summer the teenagers never seem to sleep.. I have one son that seems to be able to function on little to no sleep.. He goes to bed at like Midnight and awake by 7am.. Nap times are the most difficult of transitions around here , for I am a firm believer in nap time .. Having a bunch of cranky kids is no fun and those few quiet moments are so worth the fighting and the fits they pitch .

Right now the noises coming from within the house are of Grand~Prince's swing a swinging.. The Aqua Room has the TV playing with little voices animated about the newest game they've made up to play.. The kitchen is a buzz with Face time and Ms Diva herself trying to wake up.. The Grand~Prince seems to be like his Momma(Ms Diva) was as an infant, early to bed early to rise..
One of the greatest things I have learned about myself since becoming a Mother is my ability to function on little or no sleep.. At the tender age of 13 when my Monkey started having seizure's sleep became a thing of the past that wasn't necessary at least until day Three without it.. Now with having two sets of children ranging from Adults to toddlers I can say I do have more help then I did in my early days of parenting.. Three out of nine children have lives an homes of their own... Face time has become a regular way of communication with my Monkey since she lives about a hr away.. How I miss the days when all my children were under the same roof.. But as a parent you want your children to grow up to be healthy ,happy independent adults..
      Our household mainly consist these days of  The Gamer ( hes the daddy.. the provider ) , My own Ms Christian Grey ( shes one sexy ass Dom ) , Ms Diva (our 17 year old daughter) Grand~Prince (our youngest grandson) , The Artist ( my 16 year old daughter), Mini~Diva in training(our 6 year old daughter), Chaos (our only boy) , Rotten tail( she is only 2), an my Princess(at nine months she is our youngest daughter)... But never forgetting our Sally, who is currently missing a Jack.. (22), Monkey(21) and McCray Cray, married with a wonderful husband(20) and our oldest grand~prince Mr. Flirty Pants I live for the days when all my babies are home under the same roof laughing, and just having a good time.. Doesn't happen often or at least all together but this Momma can try... And yes in this household their are two Mommies, I share the duties of the babies an everything else.. an I Love it that way.. Well More to come about this crazy household later...
 

  Current Song of the day Poison Girl ~ HIM ...

Almost forgot since the household started waking up.. The Moment of Clarity to me this morning was no matter the struggles, chaos, or how crazy this life is .. I am loved and love in return so everything is worth it!! I am surrounded by my loves, children and their children what more could I ask for???

A View into the Land of Pandmonium.. Come , Visit and Sit for a Spell.. .

This Blog is going to be a work in progress.. By up taking this adventure back into the blogging world, I have to make time for my self. That's usually my down fall. I am always faithful in helping others but I never allow myself a break.
You see, I am a wife, Mother of 9.. Granted all my beautiful babies are in different stages of life, but my children range from 22 years to 9months..
I am on the go from sunup to sundown.. My days range from being on the go to sitting at home climbing the Mount Everest ( I call Laundry) .. I do not have all the answers by any means.. But I know what works for me and my family ..

The word family to me symbolizes not only those who are genetically linked to me but those whom I love and have claimed as mine.. My family is not traditional in any sense of the word but it works for me .. It is what makes me the happiest, where I thrive the most. . I am the happiest in my element of chaos.. I love having all the children home, whether it be sitting down and hanging out with my Adult Children, listening to the teenagers, or the toddlers running around screaming at the tops of their tiny little lungs..  I don't mind having too cook dinner for 30 people, or having 5 toddlers running under foot.. I enjoy their tiny little voices as they learn and discover new words ..

Not leaving out the two most amazing little Grand~Princes I have the blessing to have added into my life.. They are so adorable but this Grammy gets to spoil them and let their Mommies deal with the responsibilities of raising them..